A funny thing happens when you get close to finishing a goal, even the smallest inconvenience and set-back can be blown up to some major problem. Not to good for the old moral. Tuesday the self-publishing company I am working with sent me an e-mail to tell me that they had the wrong card number for a payment. Well you would have thought they had grabbed the money and ran they way I carried on about it.
Even this morning I was still upset. Mad that this would delay the printing of Runaway.
"I've been working on this for five years! Could it take any longer?" I was a real jerk about it.
But the Lord in all of his gracious mercy reminded me why I write.
Of course I still had Through Heaven's Eyes fresh in my mind. Naturally I listened to it on YouTube. At last I leaned back and let my worries go for just a moment to focus on the lyrics. Perhaps the part that got me the most was "So how can you measure the worth of a man in wealth, or strength, or size? In how much he gained or how much he gave? The answer will come to him who tries to look at this life through heaven's eyes."
That got me good.
Although I wanted to get this book published and printed for God I was trying to hard. As other prayer partners have told me by job is to write, let God worry about card numbers, sales, and technical stuff. Through heaven's eyes my true success in this matter would be measured by how much I trusted and relied on him.
None of us are exactly on our own. "The steps of the godly are directed by the LORD. He delights in every detail of their lives." Psalm 37:21
My job is to write!
God is releasing me from all these burdens. "For his yolk is easy and his burden is light." That is Matthew 11:30.
My job is to write.
It has taken God a while to teach me that this gift of mine is to be used for his glory and purposes. Before I tried to hide it from him, like a kid hiding a cool toy from his parents. I was so stupid! But that's okay cause when I'm not the brightest bulb on the tree it shows just how bright God is.
My job is to write...for God.
And I will write for God. That is my pride and joy.
If those of you who are reading this someday read my book and think "Wow. That's cool!"
Don't tell me I'm cool, that's Jesus' job. Tell Jesus he is cool. He made this book far more than what I had ever hoped. He changed the plot...he created one. I'll admit my first manuscript was a little lacking.
But I just keep writing and writing and writing till finally five years later, it had become something I had would never have imagined back in 7th grade. AND I LOVED IT!
I wonder if back then when I was just starting out, what I would have seen if I looked through Heaven's eyes more often?
God is good, my friends.
